.January 8, 2006 ' 13:51 Y
hello everyone. sorry didnt blog for a LONG time. i'm a busy gurl? heh.
ok. i'll try listing down whats been happening. (i can only remember some)
-school reopened.
-had training
-had fever
-had sec one's campfire
-lost my voice
-left with flu
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getting irritated by some people but they dont have a clue bout it-getting frustrated easily
-having mood swings
now thats all that i remember of that had been happening. had lotsa lotsa fun with friends but also had things on my mind since school reopened. may sometimes neglect my friends but they dont know anything and thinks that i'm only there when i need them. well.. you guys dont know me well enough den. hah! how ironic. things been really really bad. it may seem ok in school. but its not. my mind's disturb and i cant concentrate. i'm always thinking of stupid things. i have difficulty breathing. people think what they like to think without even consulting. i cant seem to tell anyone anything. i end up crying to myself. the people i trust most of the time dont know me well. i dont know what to do. i'm trapped with contradictions and darkness. ouh ya. and truth hurts. it hurts like crazy. just thinking of it kills me. when you get into something its ok. youre ok with it. and youre just blinded by the way its treating you. but it hurts when its over. it sucks. it stinks. its all fugly. and things will end up in a mess after that. and YOU end up in a mess. itll all turn different and itll change. it wont be the same. school suck. the only stuff that kept me alive was my friends. which some of them are assuming things. even FRIENDS have a problem. this is one of the reasons i dont like to share my problems. this is one of the reasons why i bottle up my feelings. we seem to have problems everywhere. the world is full of hypocrites. backstabbers. liars. fakers. fuckers. all. and sometimes you dont even know that youre on of them. yes its true. everyone's a hypocrite. but most are for the wrong reasons. you can avoid being one. just ask and find out whats going on. whats so different. instead of assuming and think that youre all right. well. conclusion. this week suck.
`everything i'm saying is coming out all wrongplease bear with mei've got so much to saylet me explain myself to you.
SITY KAY!